Stuff that no one wants to talk about?

This is a “Let it out” letter for my own self which I think is absolutely necessary in the given scenarios.

There are a couple of things I want to talk about which I am going through right now.

The pressure to upskill is for real.

Things for sure are becoming competitive and there is a pressure to constantly learn new things and get better every day.

There is no denying that it can be good but at the same time, it’s exhausting as well.

With a lot of distractions around, it becomes even more difficult and I am no exception to fall into that trap.

The anxiety it brings along if you are not able to produce great results continuously is there too.

Role models don’t show their vulnerable side to the world.

With the social media advent and all of us sharing more and more about their achievements and showing the positive side of it.

And us as the millennial generation generally find our role models on the internet through their work.

There are very few of them who share their vulnerable side as well. The problems they are running into or stuff that they have messed up at times which makes things more human rather than making it look like a machine continuously pushing out great work.

This, at times, can frame a negative narrative in front of us as beginners.

Obviously, they don’t owe anything to us but it is an urge for all of us out there to share both sides of the coin if they can.

Learn it all syndrome.

Has it ever happened to you that you saw someone killing it in one particular skill that is kinda fancy in your niche and then you suddenly jump into that trying to learn it.

Happens with me very often.

Don’t know how to deal with it as of now.

Chasing numbers.

I have been playing the number game for quite some time now as it works for me.

Once I wanted to improve my writing skills, I continuously posted for 100 days on LinkedIn.

I wanted to become a designer from scratch, I achieved that within an 08 weeks streak.

Like that, I often find myself chasing the same numbers on social media platforms as I am on a quest of finding an audience.

But the larger problem here is that, “Numbers are ever growing”. There is no end to it.

And that’s where the problem lies. It keeps me hooked for chasing a number that has no end and hence, sometimes messing up with my mental peace.

No denying that it is a great motivating factor but I am still contemplating on whether to keep that as a success metric or not.

Mastering the craft.

Let’s understand this from an example.

I am into design from past 09 months now and constantly trying to improve my craft.

And as I see people sharing their amazing work, I often feel disheartened as my work is not up to their level.

And that brings a constant dissatisfaction which is an uneasy feeling to live with.

While trying to debug this issue, I figured out that producing good work is a function of time you have spent practicing your craft.

And the people I generally compare are into this industry from long and hence, I guess I am being impatient enough.

That is one way or I might not be spending enough time on that. Could be either of two or something else.

Don’t know?

Yeah, that’s pretty much it. I might be thinking a lot I guess but I just wanted to let it out.

And let me tell you, it feels much better.

Sharing it here because someone of you might be feeling the same.

So as to tell you that you are not alone. This too shall pass.